Atomweight by Emi Sasagawa
Author:Emi Sasagawa
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: Tidewater Press
Published: 2023-05-04T00:00:00+00:00
Chapter 18
For the first few days, we all tried to pretend nothing was the matter. Sure, maybe I was a bit distant, but Iâd always been bookish and an introvert. Yes, Mom was in one of her moods, but that wasnât unusual. And Dad, well, he was working late entertaining clients, like he usually did. It seemed the situation had stabilized and he was doing his best to keep the momentum going. On some level, we figured out that if we could avoid each other for long enough, we could make it through the ten days without more damage to our relationship. But our feelings were festering.
When I woke up on the Tuesday after Easter, I knew something was off. Haru and Dad were at the kitchen table, getting ready for school and work, but Mom was nowhere to be seen. We ate our breakfast in silence, and when it was time, Dad and Haru left together. I stayed seated, knowing a confrontation was brewing.
My parentsâ bedroom was on the third and top floor of our house. I didnât know if Mom was awake, so I went up the steps slowly and carefully. When I reached the top of the stairs, I crouched over and tiptoed my way in. It didnât feel fair that I would have to reach out, when she had given me the cold shoulder for months, but Iâd always been the one to apologize first.
I sat on the floor, with my back against one of the sides of the bed. In the past, I might have climbed in next to her, but it would be more difficult to talk if I could see the look on her face, knowing it was me who caused it.
âAre you . . . okay?â I whispered, afraid that my words might bring down whatever crept on our metaphorical roof. She grunted and turned away from me. It felt like the room was too small to hold us both.
âIs this . . . because of me?â It felt weird to take the responsibility for it out loud, like I thought myself overly important. Mom didnât respond. Instead, she rolled over to the other side of the bed. I sat on the floor for a minute, then two, then five. It felt like it would never end. I counted to a hundred twice, in my head, hoping for anything that could tear the space between us. Eventually I got up and started to walk away. I looked over my shoulder. âFine. I will leave you alone then,â I said, half angry, half hurt.
When I was inches away from the door, she finally rolled over. âWas it me? Was it us? Did I do something wrong?â
I turned to her and saw despair. Was she afraid she would be judged for my shortcomings? Was she worried I would be shamed and exiled by her friends? I wanted to say no, but also yes. No, it wasnât her fault that I had turned out gay. No, she hadnât forced me down this path.
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