Perfectly Unfinished by Andrea Logan White

Author:Andrea Logan White
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: Zondervan
Published: 2017-08-21T04:00:00+00:00

BABY STEPS

One evening while praying, I considered my recent bright spots. I had earned my certification as a personal trainer, and though I hadn’t yet figured out how to make a living at it, it had given me a new skill set and positive growth that felt deeply satisfying. I’d made a few new friends at Crunch Fitness, even a few guys I knew I wouldn’t get romantically involved with. How great to enjoy friendships that didn’t revolve around parties, drinking, and sex! And with that realization, I knew I didn’t want to fit into my current friends’ social circle anymore. I needed to steer clear of the parties my current friendships had brought into my life. Besides, I had to face the fact that I couldn’t pay such high rent and still cover utilities, car, insurance, and groceries, much less acting lessons. I decided I needed to move out of Jenni’s place.

But how could I make my exit? The thought of conflict with Jenni set my stomach churning. On the one hand, she wouldn’t be happy to suddenly lose my share of the rent. On the other hand, she had never been hurting for money. I knew she could easily get by until she found a new roommate, and knowing Jenni—the beautiful, bubbly extrovert—she’d fill that spot in a heartbeat.

Once I’d made my decision to move out, a sense of urgency took over. I wanted out now. I wanted off the party train and out of drowning in the shame of struggling and not being able to pay rent. Without telling Jenni, I rented a storage unit, made plans to move my few belongings when she’d be at work, and pulled it off within a few days. I knew it was cowardly to slip a note under her bedroom door, but that’s what I did, simply explaining the truth—that I couldn’t afford the rent anymore and had to move—and thanking her for everything.

Mike offered his place while he was in rehab, and I knew I was overworked and weary of the ceaseless scrambling to pay my bills. I took him up on his kind offer. He entered rehab, and I moved onto the floor of the little office loft he had in his apartment.

Now comes the evidence that I was a brand-new Christian still learning what it meant. I was still working at the sushi restaurant in Westwood where I had met Joe Francis. Occasionally, Joe would ask me out, and I’d say yes. Scott and I were still dating occasionally, and the fact that Joe and Scott didn’t know about each other—Well, no big deal, I told myself. After all, we weren’t in a committed relationship. I was a free agent. And after my dates, I came home to sleep on the floor of Mike’s loft.

When Mike completed his stint in rehab and came home, I continued staying on the floor in his loft. Our relationship had never been a romance, but always a friendship. Right? I was about to discover it was not that way for Mike.

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