Salbine's Embrace by Sarah Ettritch
Author:Sarah Ettritch [Ettritch, Sarah]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Tags: Fiction, Lgbt, Lesbian, Fantasy, General, Coming of Age
ISBN: 9781927369593
Google: xK2uDwAAQBAJ
Amazon: 1927369592
Publisher: Norn Publishing
Published: 2019-09-09T21:00:00+00:00
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Lillian strode up the chapelâs central aisle, wincing at the hunched figure sitting near the front. She wasnât any good at this, but sheâd try. She sat next to Maddy but didnât take her hand. Maddyâs head was bowed and her eyes closed. Lillian was prepared to wait silently for hours, if necessary, but Maddy raised her head. Her red-rimmed eyes made Lillian wince again. âI thought I might find you here.â
âWhy would I be here?â Maddy said softly. âBecause I should be stronger than this. I should honour my vows. I should care about Salbine above everything else.â
âYou shouldnât love those around you? When a sisterâs consort passes into Salbineâs realm, she shouldnât grieve?â
âI was supposed to leave it all behind. No children. No distractions.â
Lillian snorted. âOf course there are distractions. When we entered the Order, we didnât die, Maddy. We still have our interests. We still want to learn. We donât sit in the chapel from morning to night, praying. We drink cider and gossip and sometimes get angry with each other, and if we werenât meant to love, we wouldnât take consorts. You couldnât have left Emmey behind. It isnât who you are.â
âYou wanted us to leave her.â
Lillian shifted on the bench. âYes, well, itâs a good thing you donât always listen to me.â
Maddy raised her brows.
âI know youâre going to feel terrible for a while, perhaps a long while. I see it already. But youâll do what you always do. Muck in. Help folk. You canât not help folk. Itâs the reason Emmeyâs here. Iâll let you mope around for a bit, but then Iâll keep reminding you of who you are. You saved Emmey. Now sheâll go on with her life without us.â Lillian swallowed. âIâll miss her too. I wish she could stay too. But she canât, so we have to let her go and wish her well and one day, weâll realize weâve thought about her and laughed, not cried.â
When Maddyâs hand covered hers, she grasped it and held onto Maddyâs fingers. âIt wonât be easy. But somehow, weâll muddle through to the other side.â
Maddy laid her head on Lillianâs shoulder. âThank you for not trying to buck me up with empty words.â
âIf you want someone to tell you it will be all right for you to wallow, youâll have to find someone else to talk to.â
âI donât want anyone else. I need you.â Maddy paused. âAfter Emmeyâs gone, I want to go to Heath.â
Lillian straightened, causing Maddy to lift her head. âI thought youâd wait a few years.â
âNo. As soon as Iâm confident Emmey will be all right, I want to go.â
âI thought youâd moved past it enoughâbeing malflowedâthat it wouldnât be so urgent.â Sheâd hoped Maddy would give up on the idea, though she supposed that was foolish, especially now that Maddy had received a taste of the material at Heath.
âIt doesnât bother me as much as it used to, but you read Sister Laviniaâs entry,â Maddy said, echoing Lillianâs thoughts.
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