The Cooked Seed: A Memoir by Anchee Min
Author:Anchee Min [Min, Anchee]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Tags: Biography & Autobiography, Personal Memoirs
ISBN: 9781596916982
Publisher: Bloomsbury USA
Published: 2013-05-07T00:00:00+00:00
{ Chapter 22 }
All my life I had been a soldier whose job was to kill pain. I was proud of being strong. It became my second nature to pull the plug as soon as I sensed an undercurrent stirring inside me. I locked up memories and allowed no place in my heart for feelings, because I believed that I could not afford to be weak. I told myself that I didn’t have a legitimate reason to complain about anything. I had survived China and was now living in America, a place people risk their lives to come to.
And yet as I struggled to write, I discovered that my soul had a mind of its own. It wandered to the wrong neighborhoods as I followed a memory I was trying to capture. There, as the hidden pain came to the surface, I was disarmed. When I felt as if I had been shot, I ordered my soldier self to take over. In darkness, silent and wounded, I watched myself flat on the ground enduring the internal bleeding.
Writing made me feel vulnerable. The soldier inside me surrendered. I didn’t know what to do.
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