This Time Could Be Different by Khristin Wierman
Author:Khristin Wierman
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: SparkPress
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Madelineâs feet pounded along the dirt path as Green Dayâs âHorseshoes and Handgrenadesâ roared in her ears. Sheâd started running along this trail a few weeks before. But today she wasnât paying attention to the sunlight cascading through the dark trees or the smell of fresh leaves.
âI think you might also want to examine how anger fits into your stories,â Olivia had said cryptically after theyâd made no progress on Madelineâs issues with having what she wanted.
Madeline had felt herself stiffen.
âAnger can be scary.â
Madelineâs body tightened even more. âIâm not afraid of it.â
âWere you allowed to safely express anger as a child?â
Madeline studied the sandbox.
âAnger is information. Usually, to alert you that someone is invading your space somehow, forcing a story onto you thatâs in opposition to who you really are.â Olivia seemed to pause to let that sink in. âWhen weâre allowed to express angerâwhen itâs allowed to move and weâre able to keep our story, our boundaries intactâthe anger sails away, leaving us feeling lighter. When itâs trapped, it festers. And flares up at the smallest things.â
Madeline continued to stare at the sand.
âThe only way to deal with anger is to face it and move through it to find out what itâs covering.â
Madelineâs incredulous eyes had finally met Oliviaâs.
âAnger often sits on top of feelings far more painful.â
Madeline was suddenly sick of this conversation.
âLike grief. Or shame,â Olivia continued serenely as if Madeline wasnât scowling at her. âAnger is far more acceptable than those feelings. And much easier to bear.â
Now running along the path, with words from her deceased grandmother looping through her mind, Madeline was finally beginning to understand what Olivia meant.
âWhy would you want to do that?â Granâs martyred voice whinedâwhen Madeline, at sixteen, finally put down the violin for the last time.
Madeline could hear those words as she saw her nineteen-year-old self declining the semester abroad program in Italy, a professor had invited her to join. And at twenty-four, turning down the job offer to help open that bankâs first office in London.
Why would you want to do that? Why would you want that? Whatâs the matter with you?
Sweat and anger poured out of Madeline, fueled by an outcry of guitars, drums, and Billie Joe Armstrongâs incongruously melodic voice.
Another memory cameâEmma squatting next to Penelope, who had slowed to a molasses-like pace as they walked through the zoo. Pen couldnât have been more than seven.
âHow are you feeling, sweetie?â Emma had asked, searching Penelopeâs face. âDo you want to go see the monkeys, or would you rather go home?â Madeline had never understood the strange wave of sadness that had washed through her as Pen whispered, âHome,â and Emma smiled and led them toward the exit.
Until now.
Madeline ran harder.
At the top of the hill, Madeline threw herself into a eucalyptus tree, her lungs screaming. She rested her forehead against the soft bark and inhaled the sweet, peppery scent, feeling like something had broken inside her.
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